About two months ago I made a commitment to completely surrender everything to God. And from that moment to build a personal relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and to work on being able to testify what He has done, is doing, and will continue to do in my life as I draw closer to Him.
So I have asked to share my testimony and I won’t be long. I’m going to give a quick journey of my past and I want to fast forward through it because I have no intent to give Satan any glory or space in my testimony. I grew up with parents who were both drug addicts. When I was two years old I witnessed my dad being shot and killed by his best friend who was sleeping with my mom. I witnessed this and the darkness began. After my father’s death, my mom got with another man and I saw this man beat my mom and he would beat me. The beatings went on till I was beaten almost to death. I was only three years old. From this my mom and the man were sent to prison. So at an early age I lost both parents. I was later given to my grandmother, a church going woman, who spiritually, mentally, and physically abused me. As I grew older I became a shell of nothing. What I mean is that I became a loner. I began to find my comfort in drugs and pain. I began cutting myself and over the years I have tried killing myself. I’ve jumped out of moving cars; I’ve hung myself several times, cut my wrists, and overdosed several times. I’ve been in and out of mental institutions. My point is that my life has been filled with darkness, with no hope, depression, hallucinations, and hatred. But I’m still here and I realize now that by the grace of God He held me through every attempt to take my life that wasn’t mine to take.
I gave my life to the Lord in 2012, yet I continued to have the same issues even after I was saved. I have recently realized I was trying to save myself. I was trying to stop the pain, my past and hurts. I was trying to deliver myself. Thinking that I will do some and God would do the rest. That just left me more in the dark. But recently God has revealed that He alone is Savior. He alone can heal, deliver, mend broken hearts and torn down past.
For the last few months I have totally surrendered everything to God. And I’m building a personal relationship with Him. I’m studying throughout the day and all day I’m in constant conversations about God. I’m learning that my power is in prayer life. So I’m praying more and giving God every situation I encounter and because of this I’m walking beyond my past beyond the hurts and pains. I’m learning to love, to trust, to talk and to forgive. I’m becoming a man of God cause I understand that I must daily crucity my flesh. That every problem is a spiritual problem and must be handled spiritually. So I just want to share what God has done and say it’s all about the relationship.
My relationship with Christ has helped me to forgive all who have done me wrong. It has given me my family back. It has helped me put my past behind me and brought joy and peace in my life. I thank God every day for coming into my life and saving me from what I had become. Now I have the chance to stand here today to tell everyone that God is real and if you really work to see God work in your life and bring deliverance then just know it’s all in the relationship through constant prayer, daily study and praising God through the whole process.
Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.”
Randall (inmate who attends our Memphis prison ministry program who was baptized Oct. 26, 2017)